I can never pretend nor perjure myself.
I can’t keep things that’ll make me suffer in the end.
I can’t be with people who certainly make me feel bad.
What to do?
Tell.
Explain. (Expound if necessary)
Leave.
Three things I’ve learned.
From what I have lived through, running is a part of how to survive pain -- of how to endure it.
Before you run...
Tell. Wth, ofcourse you have to admit what you’re feeling. What’s to explain when you really still haven’t told her what you’ve been going through. Of how much pain you’ve earned and that you can’t anymore take. This is a risk, well too bad for those who have a weak heart – those who are too scared to admit that they’ve suffered, they’re suffering and they’ll suffer if they just keep their mouths shut.
Explain. And you have to explain why, why’d you have to go. Tell her you needed some space, space to think, to again craft the lost but unforgotten friendship. Expound. You have to vindicate deeper for her to take it in. She’ll understand... for she wouldn’t care less. (These things are based from what I have experienced. – the second time around.)
Leave. No explanations needed. This is the part where you HAVE TO say goodbye, for a moment or for a lifetime. For you to move-on, for you to forget the feelings, for you to be numb. You have to struggle in order to learn. You have to be weakened in order to be stronger. You need to get hurt in order to survive. And you need to have faith in order to live again.
Pray.
Goodnight world.
